My Life in Outline Form
So this is the outline for my talk. I figured since there are so few of you as my readers I can share this with you :)
• Who people see me as
o This isn’t how I see myself• Before high school
o Family life
Not outwardly bad, mostly not feeling good enough
o Middle school
Moved here, whole new world
First in a string of bad boyfriends, peers were negative influence on my self-esteem
Start to physically hurt myself
• Freshman Year
o CYO; finally met real people who cared about me
o First good relationship and growth
• Sophomore Year
o My relationship with Leroy and how it affected me
o Started healing with Andrew’s help
• Junior Year
o Being drum major brought me down a little; I wasn’t good enough
o Music wasn’t strong anymore and it depressed me
o Feb. things with Andrew started to go downhill and he began to drag me down
o I had even lost CYO, wasn’t the same anymore and I felt outcast, as if I wasn’t wanted
• Senior Year
o Andrew dumps me
The heartache, felt betrayed
I saw that I deserved better, but still felt that nobody else could ever love me
o Marching Band
Always criticized and talked bad about when I did nothing wrong, called a “failure” constantly
Felt worthless and weak and started to hate myself again
o My battle
Struggle to be happy every day
My views on myself (good and bad)
• God
o I feel unworthy
So wrong, too bad of a person, I don’t deserve his amazing love
o Reaching for him
Trying to focus on God and myself
Be happy for me; not worry so much of others
Though he still feels distant, he IS there
• Bible Verse
o “He heals the brokenhearted and binds their wounds”
• My song (Stand in the Rain)
o Perfectly describes me
o I need to learn how to be strong and know that I will make it through whatever comes my way
I'll post the actual talk at some point :3 Hope you enjoyed the outline!
Much love and hugs,
Sam
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