Some Stuff On My Mind

"Sometimes I suffer from indegestion of the mind."

Quote credit goes to Carrie Latet! That is absolutely how I feel at the moment. Life has thrown a few curveballs at me recently and they're pretty tough to swallow. Most of them are weighing heavily on my mind and are tough to be rid of. I'm not going to go into detail about some things at the moment, because I have a video that will be coming up within the coming weeks bout it! Yay! I'm using my life and favorite song (Jar of Hearts) to create a video with some friends. Of course, it'll be posted here as soon as it's finished. If you're interested in hearing the song, its absolutely wonderful! Jar of Hearts <3

What I will talk about right now is some stress I'm freaking out about. At school, in order to graduate with an Honors Seal (which I've been working extremely hard for since freshman year!!!), one must complete a Senior Honors Project. This includes a research paper, a portfolio, and a product. Well I did the paper on music and emotions. It was great.
 Now comes the hard part. I took waaaaay too big of a bite for my project. I decided to compose a piece of music. It's coming along, but it's quite a lot of work and I'm starting to get intimidated by my Finale program! It's pretty scary to work with, especially when it starts getting too complicated. So I'm starting to stress about this project.....

And college is looming ahead in the distance. Don't get me wrong, I'm extremely excited about it! I am so ready to be in Charleston and living on my own, but the pressure of applying for scholarships is starting to make me sweat.

On top of all this (and homework and School House Rock), my church retreat is coming up. At this retreat, all the seniors give Witness Talks. They're also super powerful and incredibly moving talks. I'm still in the process of writing mine and I'm getting scared.....I've never been one to really talk about some of this stuff to people and this'll be to a huge group. I'm really nervous and writing it is getting hard to do. It makes me pretty sad when I start writing, but it has to be done.

Well I think this is enough for today! This was definently a more sour side of the candy bowl, but so is life. I'll try to put a little something sweet in for my lovelies (that's you, readers!) next. : )

Much love and hugs,

Sam